I didn't do it.
And that I feel like a total loser about it. (I didn't really want to talk about it, but here I go anyway.)
There were a lot of reasons to sit this one out - this almost two-week-old cold I have (Proof: Aaron mistook my breathing last night for insulin pump bolus delivery sounds. You know, that exhaling "wrrrrr" sound? Yeah. Apparently I breathe like that.); the fact that I hardly trained at all; the fact that it was at 7:00 am (that's so early!).
Even though those first two reasons are fairly legit (and the first one definitely is), I can't help but feeling like a total Lamepants about it. (Not to be confused with Lame' pants.) Maybe I could have done it anyway. Maybe I could have pushed through; done at least half the distance instead of not trying at all. But I didn't.
I thought that registering for the marathon again would motivate me to exercise often to prepare for it - instead, I kept trying to rationalize with myself that "I did it last year, and it wasn't so bad - I'll start tomorrow."
And then it became too late. And then I got sick.
Not doing the half-marathon isn't something I'm proud of; in fact, I'm a bit ashamed about the whole thing.
Ugh.
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| Dammit, Kim... |
On the bright side, I did finally get back on the elliptical last night, I've started to cut back on the daily coffee intake (somehow it tripled recently... whoops), and my fasting number this morning was finally below 200 (almost two weeks of that crap each morning), so... small victories.
yay for small victories! and you're NOT lame! you did what you needed to to take care of YOU! that's the important thing! hope you continue to feel better!
ReplyDeleteDude - You're not lame, so don't even go there!
ReplyDeleteAnd small victories lead up to big changes !
Kelly K
Small victories are VERY important! Don't feel lame because you're not. It's not always good to keep pushing yourself and if you're sick and tired, it was probably a smart choice to not go through with it. There will be plenty of more opportunities for half marathons and other races, so don't even feel bad about it!
ReplyDeleteK2 and others stole my thought: Small Victories DO lead to BIG successes, and you're not lame. Um. I have nothing else to say... Uh. Yes. You rock. These things happen. You're back on the path to success. Coffee... Ok. I'm going away now, my lame-self and all. Hope you're feeling better. Keep On Rockin!
ReplyDeleteNo blame, no shame, no judgments. Small steps lead to big goals/victories/successes. You're in the D-marathon, and we're all right here with you! You're keeping on keeping on. Yay, Kim!
ReplyDeleteDon't beat yourself up on this one Kim. "Lame" you are not. AND...I think you are a "Super Hero" for the coffee decrease. I would DIE!
ReplyDeleteI agree with the rest - you are not lame for dropping out. I can't tell you how many races I thought about and wanted to do, but just didn't end up running. The good thing is that whenever you want to do one, there will be one to do.
ReplyDeleteI appreciate all of your encouragement and kind words. Thank you. :)
ReplyDeleteDon't be too hard on yourself. This kinda thing happens, and running a half while being sickly doesn't sound fun at all.
ReplyDeleteBesides there's probably another half-marathon in a couple months for you to shoot for. :^)
http://espnwwos.disney.go.com/events/rundisney/tinker-bell-half-marathon/
ReplyDeleteI'm **ATTEMPTING** to transform into a runner myself. It's slow going over here, but I'm trying. You know -- like -- mostly run/walking :)
Been thinking about registering for this half in Jan 2012. If you can get to Disneyland, I'd love to set this goal with you.
I can't believe I just put this out there, btw.
I'll be cheering you on, my friend! I'm totally inspired by runner stories lately :)