A typical definition of stalking includes "a series of actions that puts a person in fear for their safety". In my case, my series of actions - up to 22 finger sticks per day, and an almost compulsive need to check my CGM screen - have quite the opposite goal.
In January of this year, I got my Dexcom continuous glucose monitor. It comprises one of my two "robot parts" (the other being my Animas Ping insulin pump), and I love it. I've learned so much about how different foods affect me, which has helped me to more efficiently use my insulin pump, as well. I can know what my numbers are doing while I'm exercising, and catch lows that I might not otherwise feel before things get crazy. And, even though I hate the loud BEEEP! BEEEP! BEEEP! when I'm trying to sleep in the middle of the night, I appreciate that someone - even a robot - is looking out for me when I fall dangerously low.
The flipside of all of these wonderful things is, I've become a little crazy. Okay - a lot crazy. Obsessive is a more accurate term. Being able to know where I am at all times, and then learning that the CGM isn't always reading accurately, has caused me to more than triple the amount of finger sticks I used to do. I'm a person who is all about the details, and I want to know. I need to know! I'm trying to bring down my A1C, and I can honestly say I've never been so motivated in my adult life to gain tighter control of my numbers. It's scary, frustrating, and exciting all at the same time. My last A1C, which was in April, was a 7.1... and my goal for July is 6.5. We'll see!
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